Cold heart,
whispers a stupid man on wednesday nights.
Shut up, what do you know about life, I think.
You have threesomes and believe love is temporary.
I don't know if he sees
on the same level as me
the color
white on the
fields of autumn
footprints in the
dirt.
I hurt.
I hurt so much sometimes that
I don't know why
I stay.
With diamonds in my eyes,
quickly beating a hasty retreat
from your loft bed to my
bedroom window.
I go.
I go to sleep with pain
in my heart that sends silvers waves
to him hoping he will still feel them.
He doesn't.
And I try to desperately convince myself I still love.
You, my oldest friend, my ancestors, myself.
Because if I did not believe this lie,
I would die,
more than I already have.
Do not tell me in haughty voices that I have a cold heart.
You have not been in love.
I judge you but my lover you do not see the levels I'm made of.
You don't even know how to spell "rimimbered".
Please don't make me laugh or pity you.
Please don't tell me love between men and women is temporary.
I see
lost souls roaming in
the electrical wires lying
straight roads by my home.
Please don't.
Keep your mouth closed.
Just kiss me and make me forget how young you are.