ROXANNE AND JULIANNE
I am a stand for your strength. I love you and will forever love you. I am behind you at all moments, the times when we are laughing together and the times when you are alone and doubting yourself. I will fill that space and help you to remember what is best for you. I will help you stay true to the course you pick for yourself. I believe in you and the decisions you have made- the decision to be sober and present and strong in your life. I am your best friend and will always, always be your best friend. Together we are invincible so we can never fail. At my happiest times I see us walking on the sidewalk towards the sun, laughing, my arm around your shoulder, thinking of nothing but how great we are and our dreams together. You make me happy and you also make me strong.
This note is a reminder that we have made a promise to each other to stay true to who we are. We don?t do drugs, we don?t hold back, we don?t sacrifice for people who might disappear, and we always stay together and laugh. I am counting on you to stay true to these promises, and I ask that you do the same for me. Our lives are fullest when we are sure of ourselves. I love you and couldn?t live without you. Hold this note close when you are unsure of what you want and remember your concrete decisions, why you made them, and the life we can lead together if we are true to them.
WE ARE GODDESSES. STAY TOGETHER!
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a last word before i must begin to work.
sifting through old hurts is not a good place to start,
but under the battles of a heart,
the answer truly lies.
delete is so alluring in the moonlight.
but after i breathe for many moments,
I realize.
I never asked her who she was.
and i still love her for who she is.
and ill never regret all the broken promises,
all these beautiful words.
baby, i could beg you to come home for hours.
but i dont know if im home,
or at sea,
if im caged or if im free,
and if you have a safe haven then lover, stay.
i want to let you fly away,
and be happy for your wings.
I want to watch you hold someone elses hand,
and understand the reasons why you left me.
i miss you, but i am able to live alone and still stay alive.
its amazing, my will to survive.
baby, i could beg you to come home for the rest of time.
but i want you to walk on and feel the same for me.