please go away from me,
i cannot love
i crack at the edges
i gag
in despair
i have loved before,
with a heart full of hydrogen
i said
forever
with hands full of silk
i touched
those deepest
places
with eyes like a compass
i worshipped
his every move
please go away,
i cannot love again
i cannot cry in anyones arms
there are no tears but
those that are alone there is no cutting pain just
stretchmarks from too many days
you loved before
you wanted to marry someone
before me you had a soulmate she gave you chameleons
and you held her in your arms like something newborn
don't you, want, to get away
from me
sometimes, and live on a mountain
there are a lot of words
between us, on a page, in pixels and
i cant fit all of them into my heart
i cant fit you and i cant tell you
why
i remember
making love in
the cinema
i remember
maybe, too many pairs
of eyes
looking into mine
maybe, staring past
i remember
everything
and to be comforted by you and your warm arms
is a lie, you see, we are lying here together
please go away
the sadness has dried up in the sun
it falls a solid and simple phrase
i cannot love
you i cannot, anyone
i have fallen on my knees and surrendered
my
body
to words
please leave me alone so i don't have to explain
why you mean nothing to me
so i dont have to pretend, anymore
that second chances exist