Dear love,
I know its been a long, hard road
and sometimes, with our hands clasped,
it feels stiff like glue.
But I love you.
I really do.
And when I say I want to live next to you when we grow,
Its the truth.
I could write many sweet infinite poems for you,
and I know you'd understand.
Baby I know we've told and sold each other
and we struggle in rocky land,
but after its all over, in the dust of the destruction,
i will take your hand.
willingly.
with love overflowing in me.
and i will help you up.
and I will try, so hard,
to keep resentment out of my heart,
because only you know the pathways of my scars,
and thats why I get scared sometimes.
Because I love you so much, and someday you'll move away.
and say goodbye like nothing.
and I'll be thinking of you for the rest of my life.
Were in a river, fighting the current,
and its so hard but I won't let go
cause when I go under you pull me up
and when I feel you sinking I will extend my love
like a rope.
I need you to know that I believe in you
that you are more beautiful than anyone I know
and that I am sorry for all the times ive made you feel insignificant
cause you are nothing of the kind.
I get so scared that Im not in your mind
and that you dont like to tell me things because
you dont feel close to me.
and it breaks my heart so bad to hear you say that.
sometimes i could cry.
because all my life has ever been is you.
and i never. ever. want that to change.
but you just dont care like i do.
i want you to know that i believe in you.
and no matter what you do to me, i will forgive you
and love you from afar with all my heart.
i am so afraid these days to feel hope.
and im tired of trying to let go.
and i truly have no idea who i am or what i am doing here.
and im sick of writing people unreturned worry notes.
but you make life worth it.
you always have, since the day i met you.
and this is the ninth year.
Sweetheart I love you.
I really do.
and i know ill never have another friend who
will make my life this full with truth.
and I dont want another friend.
I never want this to end.
Sweet its getting harder not to drown,
and all I've ever wanted,
is to have you around.
So know that I love you more than anyone alive
and that if i say anything mean,
its because Im scared youre saying the same of me.
I know
Its nots fair
But I really do care
So see me through,
I will navigate these oceans through your eyes...
If the only present god ever gives me is you,
I owe him bigtime