Sometimes I'm lost; others I'm found.
Sometimes I run; others I'm bound.
My heart is chained to lost emotion,
on a sinking raft in deepest ocean.
I want to live and be set free,
to cast me heart far from me.
Sometimes I wish life was easy.
like a summer wind, cool and breezy.
But here I lie here in my bed,
worrying of strife and dread.
I try to dream of a happy place,
but I find myself in a losing race.
I search for answers in love and friends,
but I feel the walls caving in.
Time ticks on never ceasing,
but my will is ever decreasing.
I try to fight, to stay tough,
but my life is a hill jagged and rough.
I've fought my demons on many fields,
But the enemy never yields.
All the people I've helped uncuff
it never seems to be enough,
to free my soul from this sin.
This may be a battle I cannot win.
A broken heart and crushed soul,
what truly is the goal?
To fall in love? To run away?
I do not think I'll see the day.
Sometimes I'm lost; others I'm found.
Sometimes I run, but now I'm bound.
Lovely thoughts
and lovely deep first poem. I hope you share some more oh and welcome to our big little community here at PP. Hang around a while I think you will find its a nice place to share some poetry. Sincerely, M.