burning cigarettes and lighters
knives and sharp things
bleeding and burning
seem to be the only things
that assuage this pain
purge the emotional turmoil
with physical pain
a fucked up thing to do
but what's a fuck up to do,
when everything he wants
is so far out of reach?
this mess of a masochist
this sad excuse for a boy
trying so hard to do what's right
and doing it all wrong
insufficient for his own life
and too stupid to know when to call it quits.