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confession? regression into depression, and lack of motivation.

craving the oblivion of self medicating (illicit drugs, or others prescriptions)

skin crawling with the desire to be parted

and let the calming sensation sink in

heart yearning for another to bury it's worries in

and all denied, for fear of what might come after

the come down after the high

the way reality slowly sinks in

it never lasts, it solves nothing

and most of all, it proves your weakness

as strong as you might be, you're only as strong as your weakest link

and mine are weak indeed, although buried

beneath mountains of control, and sea's of sarcasm

hidden behind every smile, every joke, every laugh

every caustic comment, and every flashy philosophical statement

lies the hurt, the insecurities, the worries

the co-dependent boy who was forced to grow too fast

who's never really healed, only covered up the wounds

for every up, I have a down, which is why i was left

she couldn't handle "who I became" during the down time

but enough about that, the past is over, can't change it

can't take back the words that cut so deep into her heart

and she can't take back the barbs in mine

and still I want her back..... and still i love another

and still i love yet another. the failings of a co-dependent personality

falling in love at the slightest touch

falling in love with people thousands of miles away

because I'm too afraid to approach anyone here

too shy to try, too paralyzed to act

and too scarred to expect anything more of himself.