recycled thoughts thrown down in slapdash order
trying to make sense of these emotions
unable to separate one from another
trying to resist the urge to self medicate
not quite succeeding, but what the hell
no one's perfect, least of of all you who would judge
althought to tell the truth, if I was really trying, i'd have thrown them away.
just goes to show that i'm dependant, i'm an adict, i'm a fuck-up
whatever you want to call it, call me, go ahead, I've said it many times before
meds are kicking in, thoughts losing coherency
losing the ability to write down what I want
so fuck it all, if I feel inspired later
even if it's insipid garbage, I'll write.
but for now, goodbye while I enjoy
my temporary leave of absence from
myself, my thoughts, my life, my stress, my stupidity.