it all piles up like dead leaves in autumn
like chopped wood in winter
deeper than the drifts of snow in the untamed mountains
and just as dangerous, because one day all that has come before
and all that has come to be might just trigger an avalanche
one more snub, one more pass over, one more abandonment
and I just might snap. I seem to always choose the ones
who will take advantage of me, string me along
allow me to hope without disbanding the emotions in my heart
untill it's too late and I'm invested
and then they find a way to let me know just how wrong I was
just where I went wrong
just what my fragile hopes and emotions mean to them
but I'm made of sterner stuff than that
I'm able to take it and keep going, if not able to do so without falling down for a bit
maybe I'm too nice for my own good
giving up all I have to others who don't appreciate it
giving my all and getting little in return from those I seek it from
putting others feelings in bold and pushing my own aside