screaming for help but his stolid mask
muffles the sound making it a whisper
that no one hears over their own suffering
trying to help others and mucking it up
at times this quagmire of issues manages
to work together as a cohesive whole
but it's times like these when I feel so alone
when I realize that everyone I know is gone
moved on, moved out, moved away
any way you spin it, they're all gone
and the ones who I put all my trust in
the ones who I anchored myself to
have gone and left me alone
it's at times like these that my mess
falls apart, that I FALL APART
but no one notices, I suffer in silence
the only remainder of these times
are either recorded on my skin
or recorded in these poems
which I am so prone to spewing out
making art from the mess I've made of myself
making this mess organized, for one fleeting moment
relieving the burden of a depression
deep enough to drown in, dark enough
to lose your way, and lose sight of what matters
lose sight of anything to keep you afloat.