the dark desires to engulf my soul
but the brief light keeps me whole
a being of shadow thrown into the light
a being of shadow wrought with fright
a part of the light but not one to show
it's more a part of me than i know
all i can see within my soul is hate
these feelings of self loathing will not abate
all i see when i look at others is kindness
these naive feelings are akin to blindness
i refuse to see the evil in others
but all i see in myself continues to bother
the side of me that knows the truth
the knowledge in me that is far beyond my youth
i know what i am, i know what they are
but the darkened light is like a blinding star
it continues to burn away at my brain
it continues to shine despite the pain
these conflicting thoughts this shattered soul
wishing only to be made whole.