suddenly numb
and stricken dumb
unable to express my feelings
only able to stand here reeling
wonder why I feel this way
I'm without hope, and oh so cliche
heart is racing, pulse erratic
mind is racing, thoughts are static
fingers move of their own accord
wonder how I can afford
to live, to love, to be alive
wonder how I will survive
give me strength to make it through
give me a reason to stay, to renew
my strength of heart and strength of mind
I cannot think, I've been rendered blind
by wallowing in my pain
and opening the vein
to surrender to the depression
and give into regression
just one more time
and I swear I'll be fine
just one more slice
it feels so nice
just one more line
and it'll all be fine
just one more shot
sold all I've got
just one more fix
and I'll call it quits
I swear.