he's a creature of habit, creature of hope
a creature who sometimes can't cope
with things, or himself, and turn to things best left
alone, behind, far from mind, and these things are deft
at finding his weaknesses, finding the chinks in the strongest
parts of his armor, even though he's quit them for the longest
time, they still pull at him, they seek out his heart
and plunge their hooks into sensitive parts
and dig out what he thought he left buried
and he remembers the times when he carried
burdens so heavy he thought he would die
and all he wanted to do was sit there and lie
in the quiet dazed pleasure of bliss
whatever addiction brought it on, he feels the kiss
of said pleasure, and never wants to leave
but the pleasure is a distraction, there to deceive
for that's the easy way out, and quicker as well
but even though he doesn't want to smell
the rot behind the self-indulgent habits
for he tries to hide like a scared little rabbit
he must move up, move past, move through, and on
with his life, with himself, for the better, or worse
for having known that bliss seems like a curse
when it's forbidden to him, by his own admission
for all he wants is to feel it christen
his mind with bliss for one last time
but that's where he must draw the line
end the cycle, begin anew
bid the habits adieu