In My Dreams

2 fucking years later or maybe 3...

Still you don't know what you mean to me

I've tried to say so many times

It's never right, now I can't say it right

But it's never wrong, but still you're gone

And here I stay...can't get away

Maybe God meant for it to be this way?



Struggling with others

Well I am too

I'm really not sure yet what to do

Call me up and wish me luck

I want to hear your voice again...

See your face again...

Know your life again...

What happened to us being friends?



I've got to admit I hate the way that it is

We always can take but never can give

Then we get angry at eachother for being so busy

I've got to tell you I'd be there in a second if I could

But I never can just drive 5 hours without planning it out

And now I'm sorry for never calling you

For never talking to you

Never knowing what you do...

I hope you are happy with your life too



I'd like to cry just to get rid of this fear

But I know it wouldn't make a difference

You'll never be near

Never will you whisper sweet nothings in my ear

I hope you know I love you dear

In the most friendly way you know possible

I want to take it slow

It's you I want to know

We are hours away...just like we've always been

And I am sad

I am alone

I'm fearful

I'm on my own



When will I see you again?

Rachael, you've always been my friend...

I'd hate for this to be the end

Forgive me for never being around

I feel nailed to the ground

I just hope you understand

And I hope you will open up options

That this could maybe be how I've seen in my dreams....

Author's Notes/Comments: 

Dedicated to Rachael...sorry I'm always gone...I think about you often and wonder how you are.  I hate not being close enough to give you a hug or to talk in person.  I hope that someday that will change...till then- thanks for trying to understand

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