You Let Me Down Again

We all fuck up

That is what she said

Little did she know

We'd all end up dead

And I shed these tears

From over these years

How was I to know

That these memories-

I can't let go



Feelings present

Close the door

You don't want to see

My pain no more

And when the grinding concrete

Gradually fades

You know it's not your fault

Start a brand new day



You locked me out again

Told me we were no more than friends

I don't really care at all

When will I fall?

Just let me fall



You made it your deal

To deal with me

To try and kill me softly

Drown me quietly

You could be my shining savior

You could end it all right now

But the purpose of my existance

Has not been filled somehow



I don't want to hear it

I've had enough

Just kill me now or give it up

I don't understand your letters

Or why you kiss him at all

When another false claim is made

All of the lights of my life begin to fade



I am done, giving up

You tore me apart, I've had enough

I don't want to feel this pain

It is to unbearable right now

I want to leave this place

But I can't help but forever see your face

Author's Notes/Comments: 

a mixture of emotions, partially about the book I am reading, partially about my life, partially about the similarities of the book and my life...all in all- It's fucked up.

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