These Tears

These tears stream down my face

Much needed tears that used to make me feel of distaste

At least to me...this is far more then you can see

A part of me...

Hidden deep inside

That is where it hides away from you



It is a part of me

That I never wanted you to see

There is weakness hiden in this strength

I need prayers too

I need you to pray for me like I do you



These tears fall down

Tears of hurt and anger fall to the ground

All around...

I feel as if I am all alone

And no one is home

I hate knowing that all I've done is grown



Without me there...

I'd give anything to be by her side

I need to show this feeling, I can't let it hide

My depression that I hid for all these years

The hidden anger that falls along with these tears

Anger for her...it is so hard to have no one to blame

It is all the same...and I need you here with me.



Just hold me close,

Be with me that is all I ask

If I call on you will you be there...for me?

Will you show that same love I showed for you?

I care for you...will you please do this and care for me too?



Keep me saine...that is all I ask of you.

Author's Notes/Comments: 

You, Christine, are the YOU in this. My Grandma is the SHE. You told me to call you whenever I need you...and I must say that that statement came just in time...this isn't normal, nothing I have ever felt before...the need for someone to be there for me.  I do what I can, but how can I do anything 6 hours away? This isn't fair.

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