Shoot Me Instead

I cannot cry

I don't know why

I must admit that I don't understand



I feel as if I should die

Maybe throw up or should I

Try to call you again?



I am sorry for being

Everything that I am

I am sorry for not bleeding

When you could be there to heal me



Maybe I should just go down

If I could find you, we'd talk

Go back to town

I'd tell you how much you really mean

You could wipe my tears while they stream



Here I go again

Messing up again

You can tell me that it isn't me

But I know the way that it will be



I cannot rearrange

I cannot stop your pain

All that I can do

Is drive on down and be with you



One last day

I'd be on my way

If you would stay

Please stay



I gave up my old way

I changed because I wanted to

I changed to better accomidate you



Feeling so insecure

I feel lost in you, dear

I know that I cannot stop your bleeding heart

But I can try

I will do it till I die

All I ever wanted was to be happy with you



I won't make you grow up

No I won't force you to do anything

I won't do that to you

I can't do that to you now

Now that I love you almost too much

I am feeling out of touch

I cannot say what happened

All I know is that I let it fall apart



I'm falling down

Please catch me again

Let me love you again

Tell me to let you be your everything



I cannot forget tears

Each memory will not get lost in fear

I want to hold you close enough

I want to simply feel your touch



Please stay

Don't go away

This happened every single time

I fell away with a single line



Not because I want to

But rather because I love you

I love you too much to stay and fight

I still will think of you each and every night



But you won't know

I cannot show

I cannot knock your happiness down

And so for you and only you, I will drown



If that is what you want

If that is what you need

If that is how you want this to end

Call it what you will but this love was not pretend



Let me die

So you can live a better life

I can make that sacrafice

Because I care that much



Give me the gun

Please do not threaten to take your live

I already did so many times

It isn't what I want for you

It isn't something that you sould do



Shoot me instead

Author's Notes/Comments: 

You never let me say these words last time, this time I will not be too late, I want you to know I love you so much and that I'd give anything for you to stay, it has gotten too good to just give up.  I love you.

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