Plunder shamelessly without a thought.
Carelessness is all I've known.
Recklessness is what I've caused.
Pitifulness I haven't yet obtained.
Lost myself at the corner.
*Finally someone put me out of my misery;*
without and ordinary death.
Yet nobody seems to worry.
Even if I hold myself to the last breathe,
*Finally someone put me out of my misery*
Jealous of myself that I punctured life.
I find nothing but a palette knife.
I began to write a suicide note for the inner me.
I have exiled my inner tortured soul.
I have been born again and he is free.
I am a painted apparition so he says.
He still bugs me, that tactile property.
Stabbing motions as I start to carve.
Scraping is what I can not stop.
I enjoy the killing and my own infliction.
Suddenly everything is just a haze.
If I myself can not die alone,
extra death.
If I myself can not kill one,
extra death.
If I myself can not enjoy one pain,
extra death.
If I myself can not slash my vein,
extra death.
If I myself can NOT simply die,
How did "I" end up in this world of feign?
How DOES it feel to taste my last breathe?
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