I wandered far off and forgotten places
like they told me so
chased back alley mystery peddlers
lost on this long imprisoned island
asked all the right questions
to all the right people
and left little notes to help find me
if the real answers came along
after I had gone
I never have heard it though
not once, though I spent all this time
did you find it?
I read the verboten books and deciphered the secret sigils
and it never came calling
it never once tapped me
I never saw the door, or the edge, or the dawn
and so still I wait and wait
and think
quietly to myself
how was I not good enough
is it something that I said
or did
or am
the tumblers sit unshifted by my straining
the key doesn't turn in the lock
I painted myself a picture of where I had it already
where it knew me, and I felt the way that things should be
sometimes I look at it and it makes me feel
like maybe