Faces of Confidence

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Early 20s

What’s the difference between
Being confident and playing confident?

Most days when you might see me;
Strutting my stuff,
Talking smack,
And making my presence overly known…
I’m usually just playing.
The bigger I am,
The less I probably am confident.

But days when you might see me
Behave a little more reserved,
Pausing before I answer a question,
Maybe even a little demure,
I am probably most self-assured.
The quieter I am,
That’s when I’m most confident

Times that I feel the need
To scream and shout,
To draw attention to myself
(In a positive way of course)…
That’s when I feel weary
And uncomfortable.

But if I can just sit and be
Still in the world,
Let myself be content
Not filling the air with more noise…
That’s when I feel the most at ease,
When I am the most me.

But is that what you’d presume of me?

If you saw me sitting in a crowded bar,
Quietly by myself on a stool;
Would you think me shy and insecure?

Or would you be more inclined to think
That I was a confident bitch,
If I were dancing on atop that bar?

Our societal perceptions of confidence,
Are skewed to say the least.
You can’t be too sure of someone’s tenacity.

So really…
What’s the difference?
Between playing confident?
And being confident?
And could you honestly tell the difference?

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Written June 2011

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