The days seem long inside my mind,
When will the day come for me just to unwind?
Do I live right?
Or is there another way.
Can I cross over Jordan and not be the same?
Are You working inside me or am I still plain?
All the work seems for nothing,
things just stay the same.
Inside me is what I want changed
But the heart inside seems to be a lonely flame.
The fire You set inside doesn't seem to go anywhere,
Most of the time I still wonder if Your there.
Will things change inside my heart?
Should I stop, or keep calling You,
and pray You won't depart.
Why the wrong thoughts,
motives and parts?
Do I play a role, or is this just the start?
Let me hear You deep in my soul,
Because sometimes Lord,
I just don't know.
©Betty Bolden
12-16-05
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