To My Boys

 

Not sure how I know, or why, but I'm pretty sure I'm about to die 


One knows these things I feel, as time like thieves begins to steal 


I'm a little sad and maybe you will be too

But life begins and all things renew


Maybe I'll come back as a lazy english bulldog

Or a black cat, caterpillar, or just an ant on a log 


On rainy cold days i hope you think of me

Like the red gold orange hue of fall you see


I don't know why my time is near 

But missing you grow is my only fear


But I'll watch from afar I can promise you that

And cheer you on like a kid up to bat


Try to remember some of the things I have said

In the many poems I wrote, and you read


Sometimes things burn too bright to stay

It would be nice for people to remember me that way


Play some cool music the day I die

Like you can't always get what you want but you try


Tell funny stories, if you can think of a few

Maybe you'll even hear one you never knew


Probably not, because you guys always said

I needed new stories to share instead


I love you too much that words just won't do

I was put on this earth to bring in the two of you 


Now my chapter is almost done

Despite feeling like It's over before it's begun


Like a FlashFire I burned quick and I burned hot

But hopefully one not so easily forgot


I hope you laugh or smile when your mind replays a memory

A movie of us, for you to see


Goodbye for now but just for now

It's time for me to take that final bow


And exit this play of life I led

And remember these final words I said


You both amaze and astonish me

Now say farewell and set me free


You'll see me again in a sunset or cloud

I'll be watching, so please make me proud


Be kind, be strong, and laugh a lot

And try to live the lessons I've taught


You are now my living legacy,

Let people recognize in you what they loved about me


Goodnight my sweet boys it's time for me to go

I'll never be gone long, or for good though

 

Like the giving tree stump so close to the ground

I'll be here and there just look around


Because She loved the little boy so much she had nothing left to give

But to her it was perfect, the life she lived


So goodnight my forever loves I want you to know

It's okay I left early, it was my time to go


So smell me in the scent of a candle you burn

This chapter is finished, no more pages to turn


But I'll visit like thunder, random and sporadically

And you'll grin and say Hey Mama, you back again?


Because not even death can keep me from you 

so mourn no more and know this much is true 


I existed and did what I was meant to do

which is to raise two beautiful, sons like you


So, say goodnight moon sleep tight, don't let the bedbugs bite

And maybe I'll pretend i shined just a little too bright 


And this world was not equipped to handle someone like me 

Maybe one day it can, but we'll have to wait and see...







 

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