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Over
I can't believe it's over I can't believe you're gone
The last 4 years were fake and you were just a con
How foolish and blind I was to think you might actually love me
Everyone was in on it except I was just too blind to see
I remember us driving and singing the songs we always sung
Kissing at stoplights as you would slowly fill my lungs
Memories remain now like hot tubs and the prairie house lawn
Where you made me feel like my curse was finally lifted and that my curse was finally gone
You used to make me laugh until a pain formed in my side
And we talked about a day where I would become your bride
You understood me better than anyone and that's why this kills so much
And you used to cause me butterflies with just the slightest of your touch
I remember all the word games we would lay in the grass and play
To see how many times you would say the same thing I would say
I thought you were the yen to my yang and we completed each another
And I would joke that we were separated at birth despite our different mothers
Each inside joke now tears me apart
And Jesus be some masking tape to repair this broken heart
I remember every hotel room with vivid clarity
Because my happiness before those nights was such a rarity
But I also remember fights erupting like volcanos
Whose damage from the aftermath was as stark as spring tornados
Your words were harsher than my own worst enemy
But I forgave until there was nothing left of me
Your personalities were so different, there was never one but two
I'd walk on eggshells then cloud nine, but to predict I never knew
I never believed you could love and hate someone so equally
Until your demons began to surface and stay so regularly
If love is all it took then I would have defeated them and won
But sadly even love can't undo what years of hurt have done
Your past pain fought me though, at each and every turn
To prove you were unlovable, you would ignite the flames to watch them burn
Maybe you needed someone stronger to show you what I tried
That you were worthy of love and anyone who told you otherwise had lied
I still pray that prayer for you, the one I said that November night
Where you would learn to accept love and and realize not everything's a fight
I wish I could have shown you what life could have been
But luckily it is never too late to learn to begin again
You can change the path you're on and rewrite your destiny
Or you can remain a prisoner of the past, and a slave to history
And even though your life may seem at times too difficult to bear
Remember that your enemy is you, you alone and all your fear
Fear that maybe you really were worthy of love, despite what life had said
And even though you had it with me you remained sick inside your head
Maybe what you really need is to learn to love yourself one-day
To finally silence the voice of hate you hear, and all he has to say
You deserve to be loved but it starts with work and honesty
Because nothing can grow in shade, the shade of a deceitful tree
You have to learn to close your chapter of lies and learn to let them go
Because lies just infect us all as they grow and grow and grow
So take today and be the best version of who I know you can be
Realize I loved you more than even you could ever see
But I have to say goodbye now for the rem
ainder of my sanity
And I pray there's a love like the one I had for you, somewhere out there for me
