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Jackson
Sometimes I wish I'd wake up to find it was all just a bad dream
And that everything about me doesn't make you want to scream
I wish you didn't run away every time that I come near
Because I can't just let you go when you're all that I hold dear
I wish I made you proud and I didn't disappoint you
And I wish the words you said to me were actually untrue
I wish you'd find some traits of mine to be worthy of your time
Like when you liked the poems I'd write and how they always rhymed
Maybe you just let the bad things outweigh all of the good
But if you made a list today you might find you simply misunderstood
Maybe you'd see I'm not as bad as you actually think I am
You could forgive my mistakes and try once more to give a damn
I'm hurting right now more than you'll ever know
Because you gave up on me and it really shows
You forgot all the times I meant everything to you
And it feels like it's only me you outgrew
My life is literally in pieces on the floor
Each time you walk away and close your door
Ill try anything just to get you back
Even when your words hurt me like a heart attack
I wish my personality didn't repulse you like it does
I'd give anything to go back in time like it once was
Where you would light up when you saw me and hug me so tight
It didn't matter then when things in my life didn't go right
Because I had you and your brother and we were the 3 musketeers
We stuck together through all the laughter and tears
I would give my life to make yours good
If that's what it took then I wish I could
My body just aches because you're pulling away
And I don't want to lose you for good one day
So try to remember how I taught you to skate
Or the lunchbox artwork I worked so hard to create
Or throwing the football and yelling spirals for days
And forcing you to play my favorite charades
And never forget me reading the giving tree
Because I always felt and knew that the tree was me
It's easy to grow up and let those memories fade
But I'm here waiting and wanting new ones to be made
Please don't give up on me the older you grow
And just realize there's one thing I want you to know
No one will ever love you like I do
So I'll never give up or stop fighting for you
You will always be my greatest achievement, my son
That why I call you Jackpot because with you I won
When my days are dark and my luck runs dry
I think of you and I give it one more try
I'm not close to perfect but one day you will see
I'll always try to do better for you, because you're the best part of me
