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Lord it's been awhile since I heard your voice 

And I know it's not by my choice

But life sure gets in the way sometimes

When two steps up and ten steps back seems to be the only way I climb

I lost my job a few months back and I'm struggling day to day

My tooth's been hurting and my dog's been limping so I guess I didn't have too much to say

Wondering when it was we took a break and when will I hear from you next

Too bad you don't have a cell phone or I'd shoot you a friendly text

When it rains it pours and right now I feel like Noah on the ark

As I pray for light amidst this time to illuminate my dark

I used to hear your voice as you said to me I'll get you through this fire

Now all I hear is the crickets sing as I watch the flames burn higher

The light that once burned inside me grows dimmer by the day

Where there once lived hope, expression, empathy seems to now slowly fade away

I look different now from life's sharp slaps and worn out from battles rarely won

And I never thought my only purpose was to be the bearer of my sons

A backstage understudy whose role was never meant to shine

But to build up and support so many lives, so many lives but mine

Friends and family seem fickle and few, and now my purpose never clear

I feel like you gave up on me, which was my one and greatest fear

It was just us though when love abandoned me, and it still remains a myth 

But through it all at least I had you to share all my sadness and sorrows with 

I can't continue in this life alone Lord, I need you as my friend

I haven't heard from you in awhile though, so I want to understand

Hopefully one day you'll remember me and have a little clarity 

And remember I tried, I fought, but lost the battle of who I was meant to be 

Now all I hear is the sound of my own voice

She screams, please answer me, but in return all that echoes is white noise  

Footprints in the sand was a lie I once believed

So, I walk alone now and feel that you have finally forsaken me

I guess I understand why, I know I am to blame 

And now I wish like you, I could abandon myself just the same 

Maybe next time around I'll place you above them all 

And then I'll fly with wings you made that will never let me fall

But until that life or karma chooses to visit me one day

I'll continue to wait for you, and I'll continue to just pray 

Pray I hear your voice again like I used to in the past 

Because if I don't, I'm not sure how much longer I can last

So God, please hear my cries because I need you more than you know

I can't do this on my own, I wish I'd never let you go

Just one more chance is all I ask for you to be able to see See the person you created, the one dying inside me

Wait, what's that I thought I heard my name 

It sounded like you just said you love me still the same 

Then why has it taken you so long to respond

To let me hear you or for you to correspond 

Because my child it is only through your struggles you stumble on your strength

I wish I didn't have to let you suffer or go to such great lengths

But I need you to remember that through pain is when we grow 

I wish there was another way for you to learn and finally know

I'm always here by your side though no matter what you're going through 

And one day you will be blessed among only a chosen few

Few and far who will be able to truthfully say

They lived with challenges, but still chose kindness everyday 

So my sweet child I'm preparing you, for your time is still to come

For you to bloom like the lotus flower and be who your meant to become

I cause the greatest pain to those most special souls to me

Because their lives prove what very few can see

That faith you place in me no matter what trials you've had to face

Means by my side you will one day take your place 

So show the doubters that steady you will stay

As the tears stream down your face and pray

And thank me for all the pain that you have had to endure

Because it's in that moment you will be sure 

Desperate agony draws me close to those who might stray

And through it, I fight for those who might otherwise leave my fray

So I took nails to my hands because of my love for you 

And now you take your hurt to remember what's true

I love you so much that I cause you incredible pain

Because it's only in that dark moment you remember my name