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Drowning in your sickness
Im sorry that I let you down and I turn away.
But, i just cant expose my true identity to anyone anymore.
I miss the girl that danced crazily everyday.
I miss the smile i shown before.
But, my arms, unlike my words, are not deceiving.
They tell no lies.
You dont even notice me bleeding.
I see no mercy in your eyes.
I know your heart is shattered.
I know you'd love to cut her throat.
I think you're being selfish...
because i need you the most.
Do you remember talking about keeping it bottled up...
so tight that you want to explode?
Everytime that blade cuts my skin, i'm comforted until i've had enough.
I dont expect you to understand cuz you just dont know.
You dont know what its like to be me...
I may have lied to you.
But you said you'd always be there for me..
So i think you lied too.
Sometimes I find that i want to leave you...
you make me so angry that i cant speak.
You're lucky I love you as much as i do...
and you're lucky that im not weak.
You say I can talk to you but im afraid the door is shut.
I know you love me but you've stopped showing it.
Im sorry that im so angry; I belong in the nut hut.
I cant keep hurting myself over this shit.
Now you're punishing me for lying but did you ever think i did it so you'd see...
me instead of her, who is always on your mind.
She is nothing compared to me.
Your blood flows through my veins and mixes with mine.
Im sorry that i've failed everyone but im changing as the days go by.
I dont need anyone; im gonna be okay.
I'll put on a fake smile and forget to cry.
Are you happy now?? You have your way.
