Leaving Me Forever

I sit here imagining the day you leave...

I don't know how I'm going to react.

Thinking about it makes me unable to breathe...

because when you leave, you won't be back.



I have no pictures of your face...

I wonder if i'll forget your smile?

I don't really understand my place...

God, I feel just like a child.



I choke these words back as I speak to you...

The results could mean death if they were to escape.

Lying is much better than what those words could do...

I'll never speak them again and it's much too late.



Your heart is guarded...its never been visible to me...

Why am I still gasping for air?

I'm shielded from reality...

I don't want to think about you going there.



You say that I'll forget you but I don't think I can.

I think you carry a piece of me with you.



I fear the day i'll have to say goodbye...

Burying everything I feel for you is only best.

I'm forcing myself to lie...

For you, I'll silence the heart in my chest.



I feel nothing.

Author's Notes/Comments: 

Once again, I did. But, I didnt silence my heart for him, I did it for me.

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Ryan Volner's picture

i am really touched that you feel that way...and no...you should not be worried about what i will think aobut it...cuz i will try my best to let you explain yerself...anyways...it is a good write