my child everdearest
i wrote this letter
along with my hope to
patch your broken past
the past that i darkened
the past that my greed murdered
it was half of you life
im sorry
forgive me for choosing
a wrong path for you
for selling you out
forgive me for bashing you
wthout even getting
me provoked
forgive me for being your mother
fogive me for not being one
i want to tell you
how much i have suffered
regretting all the ill things
that i did to you
i admit
i treated you like dirt
like a worthless object
like nothing
oh how i miss your voice
the way you sang my songs
i miss the way you cared for me
being there when i was sick
being strong when i was weak
i miss them and you
despite the fact that i
ignored them before
i ignored them and you
my child everdearest
i am now hanging on
the shorter end of life
a testimony you proved
that time could heal
a testimony of my
own realization that
time could kill
i am old now and leaving soon
i have no more pride to encase me
would you let it too
for me to have
no more child to embrace me