i often begin
building it before
they all come
by the time im almost done
i begin shunning my doors
i fear it when
they come knocking
asking
begging me
to let them in
and partake a little
of my own personal hell
i hate it
i hate foreseeing the future
i hate you pleading for
my mercy
i hate it when when you
find your salvation
in my comforting mess
but i guess
thats not really me
hating
its just my dread talking
my fear provoking
and my real self unspeaking
having nothing to say
about this whole s hit
before i run out of space
i guess i have to end here
because theres nothing that
can measure what i got
for you here and all the fears
i have to bear
Great use of words...I love your emotion shown! Keep writing