im sorry
im living in rage
im sorry
but i could no longer engage
into something
so sublimely right
but in reality wrong
im sorry
but i finally decided
to just walk away
and to keep walking
no matter how high
that cliff might be
no matter if i fall and see
i might break a leg
i wouldnt mind
ill just keep going
straight up
where theres no way to head
if my fall kills me
i wouldnt mind
my spirit will be swept
by the sea
to a somewhere shore
or the wind
to a somewhere door
im sorry
im living in sorrow
that just wont let go
that i dont wanna know
if it is here to stay
and drain me of my breath
or fill me with regret
im sorry
but i finally amended
to just sink and keep sinking
no matter how deep
or if i ever float
i might drown too
but thats alright
i could become an angel
but i wont mind
if i keep falling
and blending
and mending your ails
if my call turns me
into a vicious savage
or a demon
i wont mind
ill go on
like a dead man walking
ill be fine
im sorry
i keep saying sorry
because i might get lost
and you might not find me
but it doesnt matter
because now
ill cease wanting...
ill yearn for nothing...
ill grow numb...
and hope to fade...
...just fade.