i can just watch him
got nothing to do with it anyway
i watch him sing his way out
of his complicated dedication
to nothing
or was it something blurry
something uncertain
unsure unwise and unsettled
i see him create
a heaven of his own
a personal sanctuary
or was it a collection
of his either dead or dying memories
i cant see the reason
why hes still here in the
first place
he said hell turn into a god someday
he said hell bring out his dead
and say a little prayer
or was it a chant of hope
for peace or forgiveness
or love or was it rain
i can see him defragmenting
a series of pasts that we both
lived in and in vain
and how he was able to create
his own reality out of his
sane state
i just cant see how he
can cling to almost anything
and how easily he can turn down
a good deal of sacredness
although ive never visualized
a point in his seemingly
vague and senseless world
i somehow understand
what all these things
that hes got are all about
and i find them good.