Doomed, destined to wander the earth
An eternal pain
Every step I take, it hurts
What have I done
My lifes unending curse
A lonely life
Simple philosophy at its worst
My lonely heart sailing the open seas
I am a metaphor for a deadly disease
Those who touch me
Will never find peace
Why do you hate me?
Am I really so cruel?
Or are you playing me?
Taking me for a fool
I will never know
And neither will you
For I am disconnected from the world
I am the man in the moon
My heart was open
And you tore it in two
Left me crying tears of blood
And now we are through
See this is the difference from me and you
I would have been there through and through
But you took me for granted, told your filthy lies
Now I see clearly, now I've opened my eyes
No longer can you hurt me
My soul has earned it exemption
No longer can you cause me pain
I have achieved my redemption
No longer do I ache
Nor do I cry
Everything you said was just another lie
I am now all alone
And nowhere to go
So I wander this earth
To find myself a new home
But this stain you have left
The extra darkness to my shadow
The water always seems deep
Yet I know it is shallow
You gave me the fear to drown
You made me cut my wings
I am afraid to be free
I am afraid to open my eyes
I am afraid of what I will see
I hope you can one day look in the mirror
Stare deep and you might see a shimmer
That fleeting moment where you finally see
That the daemon you have been fighting was never me
It was you, roaring, screaming, trying to break free
I was merely a guardsmen on an old wooden gate
Holding the beast back
But I can't fight no more
The walls have begun to crack
Along with my heart
Now I am running and I can never look back
This is the life you left for me
Alone and in darkness
I am walking alone
Destined forever
Waiting to land in my casket
No longer is there a meaning
You took that from me
Only my son shines hope into my heart
Without him the world would be black
But even then I am so weak
Destroyed by your relentless attack
Can I step up and be the dad I want to be?
Or was you right all along?
Am I just an echo in lifes age old song?
Can I do my son proud, the way he does for me?
Or will he see the world with your eyes
And count me as an enemy
Even now as I speak
Before I step into the dark
I hope he grows up well
And does his dad proud
Bes the best he can be
Learn to cage his beast
And live his life free
Why question it?
Its inevitable
He is the grandest gift a man can have
And with my life over
At the age of 22
I am proud as can be
I have done the best that I can
And left the world a great gift
Soon the hate of the world will crumble
And emotions will shift
Love will shine bright
Everyone will gain the sight
And finally see that love will always be be
Lay down their weapons give up the fight
Let the love given by earth into their lives
Nature is a battleaxe we always see it as a curse
Yet it gave us the gift of life
And whilst it gave birth to our pain and our shattering hurts
Without feeling any of these,
Beauty, happiness, kindness, caring, and love
Would have no worth
This is the message I leave you all
This message is my first
And now I am leaving you
It is all that remains
Of a long lost soul
Who will never be named