A Lost Soul

Doomed, destined to wander the earth

An eternal pain

Every step I take, it hurts

What have I done

My lifes unending curse

A lonely life

Simple philosophy at its worst



My lonely heart sailing the open seas

I am a metaphor for a deadly disease

Those who touch me

Will never find peace



Why do you hate me?

Am I really so cruel?

Or are you playing me?

Taking me for a fool



I will never know

And neither will you

For I am disconnected from the world

I am the man in the moon



My heart was open

And you tore it in two

Left me crying tears of blood

And now we are through



See this is the difference from me and you

I would have been there through and through

But you took me for granted, told your filthy lies

Now I see clearly, now I've opened my eyes



No longer can you hurt me

My soul has earned it exemption

No longer can you cause me pain

I have achieved my redemption

No longer do I ache

Nor do I cry

Everything you said was just another lie

I am now all alone

And nowhere to go

So I wander this earth

To find myself a new home

But this stain you have left

The extra darkness to my shadow

The water always seems deep

Yet I know it is shallow

You gave me the fear to drown

You made me cut my wings

I am afraid to be free

I am afraid to open my eyes

I am afraid of what I will see



I hope you can one day look in the mirror

Stare deep and you might see a shimmer

That fleeting moment where you finally see

That the daemon you have been fighting was never me

It was you, roaring, screaming, trying to break free

I was merely a guardsmen on an old wooden gate

Holding the beast back

But I can't fight no more

The walls have begun to crack

Along with my heart

Now I am running and I can never look back



This is the life you left for me

Alone and in darkness

I am walking alone

Destined forever

Waiting to land in my casket



No longer is there a meaning

You took that from me

Only my son shines hope into my heart

Without him the world would be black

But even then I am so weak

Destroyed by your relentless attack

Can I step up and be the dad I want to be?

Or was you right all along?

Am I just an echo in lifes age old song?

Can I do my son proud, the way he does for me?

Or will he see the world with your eyes

And count me as an enemy

Even now as I speak

Before I step into the dark

I hope he grows up well

And does his dad proud

Bes the best he can be

Learn to cage his beast

And live his life free



Why question it?

Its inevitable

He is the grandest gift a man can have

And with my life over

At the age of 22

I am proud as can be

I have done the best that I can

And left the world a great gift

Soon the hate of the world will crumble

And emotions will shift

Love will shine bright

Everyone will gain the sight

And finally see that love will always be be

Lay down their weapons give up the fight

Let the love given by earth into their lives

Nature is a battleaxe we always see it as a curse

Yet it gave us the gift of life

And whilst it gave birth to our pain and our shattering hurts

Without feeling any of these,

Beauty, happiness, kindness, caring, and love

Would have no worth



This is the message I leave you all

This message is my first

And now I am leaving you

It is all that remains

Of a long lost soul

Who will never be named

Author's Notes/Comments: 

Don't worry about comments, just wanted to put this somewhere, a last drop in the water as such

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