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My Eyes Won't See
I look at myself and see nothing,
For at times my eyes won't see.
My mind searches my heart,
Always to feel what I can't heal.
If I am sure that it is what I feel,
I feel could be real with doubt.
Listening to sounds of nature,
And wanting to be apart of such.
Just enough beauty to overcome.
All that I don't trust and see.
It overcomes my will and trust.
Lies set in are easily identified,
From the lips of my man and friends.
Chipping away at my will for company,
A loner in a world that doesn't understand much.
Never wanting to keep anyone from desires,
Desires that become dreams so true.
And pray others feel the same for me.
At times I refuse to see what could cause me pain,
While I attempt to get myself together.
Fearing most what I will always be,
Alone in this world even with others.
My eyes won't see the harm that has been caused,
From lies and deceit from those I have and do love.
What shall I focus on now?
Every day I ask myself from now on.
For my future is bleak fuzzy as it vanishes,
Only because my eyes, heart, and mind won't see them anymore.
I try to form new ones and strive to get stronger,
The struggle for survival seems to put those sitting on hold.
Day to day I live in complete horror of what the next second will bring.
Struggles come and go as I try to remain strong,
But again, there are so many things my eyes won't see.
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