I left myself to die alone,
Once I loved myself until that sorrow.
Now, to find myself is a dark path,
Following it courageously is painful and lonely.
Many times I trip, fall, and become discouraged,
I wish for support from the man I love.
Other times I listen to others that hate success,
I wish to love myself more and more.
Sometimes the path crosses other roads,
Roads that I have no choice than take.
These roads pay my bills and make life tolerable,
Once again I fall and break my all.
I know somewhere I am out there,
Reaching t to love me again.
To find myself might take forever,
Always striving and searching - I will love myself again.
October 29, 1995