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Wounded soul
Sad and alone
You are a wounded child
Always wondering why
You struggle in the darkest hours
You fight the lonely night to make it through
Until the daylight comes to light the shadows
You need to see no one is hiding there any longer
God should have held you more closely
You suffered the lies and indignities of your mothers making
Her diseased mothers milk fed to you, poisonous and destructive
It shattered your childish mind
Sitting in your crib alone and in the darkness
You were left there and subjected to the wicked laughter and....
haunting voices of abusers and users
Demons speaking muted words of fear and death and lies
That madness swept you away upon the waves of insanity
The horrors of your childhood are there behind your eyes
I think of you and I am overwhelmed
My heart caught between hope and sorrow
A child screams for relief inside your fragile heart
The peace and silence that you seek elude your withered mind
If anyone ever loved you, you never felt the truth of it
I know this myself, oh how I desperately tried!
It was only the briefest moment of your life, covered in love
Your broken heart deceived you then and tore your love away
Your mother grabbed you up for herself and took what she wanted from you
Now loss and anger grind out misery upon your tortured soul
You have been held in children’s hearts
As near as God to them
You walked away....not able to look back
Pain and fear devoured you..... so you are no beloved mother
There you are with the needle
Hoping to drive away any feeling, trying to immitate death
Taunting the beast with a once beautiful feast
Desparately wanting to be free of this world
It's always been sorrow, pain and misery....for you
Your mind falters and you are alone and flailing in the darkness
Tired and weary of this life
You squeeze your eyes tightly closed against the agony of it
You wish desperately for the end to come
Could God not see your soul's despair?
Save you all the misery?
Save you all of the pain with His gift of Grace?
He ignored my prayers and left me haunted by the memories we shared
The good and the bad
The mind numbing illnesses that pull at you ceaselessly....
Twisting your intentions into sad malicious needs
Depression, Schizophrenia a damaged heart and ruined spirit
Self loathing and self hate are your legacy
Your selfish mother like a bitch dog giving birth to ruination and sorrow
She gave you nothing to hold in your heart but loss, grief and anguish
The truamas that you bring upon yourself destroy you
These things devour your lost spirit, soul and love
The worst of inhumanity holds you where you are
I see you thrashing there upon that dark and unyielding whipping post....
You fight against your bonds wanting to be free
If only I could have helped you then....God knows I did my best
The only one who can set you free now is....
That sad wounded child who is always wondering why
I have soothed your heart as best I could
I kept our daughters safe from you and loved them with all that I have inside of me
They are beautiful, wonderful and cherished
My heart breaks for you and after all these years I cry
Whenever you cross my mind
