Here I am
pulling at my hair
ripping at my flesh
trying to find what lays beneath this filthy facade.
When I look in a mirror,
I want to see who I am.
I want you to see through these eyes
to look past this smile.
I want you to see
the darkness deep within.
I want you to see
straight to my heart
beating each second away
longing to be near you
to be with you.
I want you to see this love.
It tears me apart
from the inside out.
I want you to see
my fears and myseries
my shames and desires.
I want you to see
the depths of my soul,
where none have vetured before.
I want you to see
through my lies,
my thoughts,
my walls.
I want you to see
what it pains God himself to look at in me.
I want to bare myself before you.
I want you to know who I am.