its noticeable over time
that my tears are on unstoppable
the break of this heart of mine
is definitely more probable
and there in the hand
of the one i desire
lies the one thing that
my happiness will require
the caress of that hand
or a feel of his kiss
something sincere
just.. feeling better than this
and the times i remember
how it felt to be held
the warmth of your skin
talk of when our bodies would meld
a kiss on the cheek
a peck on the head
its killing me
these words kept unsaid
these tears i force out
because they're soo deep inside
i told you i was okay
but you knew that i lied
now sit here inside myself
lying without a clue
i must have done horrible things to you
to deserve all this loneliness
to deserve all this pain
and the way you ignore it
is driving me insane
you see how i sit there
you see how i cry
but never existing
a time where you
could actually try
but always it is
that I'm the one who's wrong
but you never take notice
how i feel i don't belong
I'll sit on the sidelines
while you go play your games
attention to these other people
bodies with no names
everyone knows
i don't deserve half the things you do
but either way I'll be crying
with or without you