As the tears dry on my face
I mourn the thing I can not replace
Love and desire so fresh and so true
has left me broken, despondent and blue
I stare at my reflection - seeing if its me
knowing not what to do with the me I see
I can yell and cuss or cry and fuss
But the pain will remain
As the thoughts race in my head
I try to make them stop before bed
The dream of you and I is dead
Feel as though my feet are made of lead
I have deifned myself through you
and now I know not what to do
I feel ugly and unwanted
And the pain will remain
As the reality starts to sink in
I question myself yet again
Does it really matter?
if on others he eants to smatter?
Maybe I can settle for this
and make it a homely bliss
But as I think the thought
I am reminded I have a place
one day I'll find where
no pain will remain
As I think of those day
the present seems just a maze