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I'm looking toward the future

and my mind and heart are filled with dread

for what is about to come...

I find myself asking

who do I want to be?

I feel like I'm drifting

like I don't completely belong

so now I'm moving through the crowd

and I'm trying to find myself

I feel like I'm lost

and I just want to go back to the time

when everything was simple

and that sense of belonging was mine

I'm just trying to find out the kind of person I was

and the kind of person I am now.

I long for that sense of belonging

and I feel like it's so close that I can taste it

but it keeps slipping through my fingers,

and there's nothing I can do but let it go.

Thinking about what went wrong

and what I should have changed

and I wonder maybe if I had the nerve

to do what I wanted

to fix what I'd wrecked

how would it be now

A longing and a deep desire

trying to live in the present

instead of my past.

Looking through old journals

my memories in albums and books

the secrets of my life concealed

things I will never tell anyone

and things I need to tell someone.

My worlds spinning out of control and

I'm losing myself.

Effortlessly.