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not a poem
I don't knwo what to do
with all these mixed signs ur sending me
u say u love me but i just dont believe it
im not a doll
for you to hold when u want and cast away when u don't
i refuse to let u use me
and then throw me away
u want me?
come show me
I don't trust you
and now I'm trying to forget you
u want us to be "us"?
come show me
prove you love me
coz right now, i just dont believe it
i don't know what to do
all these confusing signs
do u love me?
do u really, truly?
I think I want more
could you be more?
you say we'll last
how long?
u say u want a long term
would u want long term with me?
i don't know if u love me
and i'm going out of my mind
worrying about u and me so much
i can't even be myself around u any more
all these pent up frustrations
along with my best friends hating ur very guts
this is too much for me
if only I was sure
of me and you
if only i knew
that you were too
this is confusing
and mind numbing
i can't deal with it
and i just can't take it
everytime i try and get away
u pull me back in
and when i'm completely in love with you
you do something to make me doubt us
I don't knwo where your heart lies
are you with me?
or with her?
yes this is about her
that girl whos still "in love" with you
I wish she'd move on
but I know she won't
It's not her fault
it's mine for being so insecure about everything
if only I could be sure
if only I knew
but now
here i am again
thinking of how to get away
how to make my mind clear
listening to hilary duff songs trying to make sense of us
there are a million things to do
but i only have u on my mind
and i just can't leave u behind
i don't know how you do this to me
but ur the one whos always on my mind
and even if u don't love me
i know i'll always love you
and u don't know how much that scares me that i might never be able to get away
it's hard to let go
it's impossible to forget you
i don't wanna lose you
but here i am
trying to think of someway to get away
u told me u loved me yesterday
did u mean it?
i felt like u did
when i saw u before my eyes
every amount of sadness melted away
how can u do that to me?
and by the way
u'll never know
but u made me cry
all yesterday, that walk in the park
I was crying the entire time
and then u showed up
and u hugged me and held me tight
and everything just disappeared
I never wanna lose you
I want to spend forever with u
but I know you don't wanna spend forever with me
I know you're not serious about us
but couldn't u atleast try?
and if u really can't see urself with me forever
then why are u with me?
it doesn't make sense
and i just don't get it
Love is just so overused
and i'm sorry, but that girl
she really is a slut
i know shes ur friend
but u don't understand how hard it is for me to just watch
knowing i can't do anything to try and keep u for myself
u told me not to worry
that u might stray
but i just don't know
how was i before?
am i still the same way?
before, I always had a feeling that u loved me
now i just don't know
I wanna get away
but thing is
I'm in so deep
that I just can't
there are so many things running through my head
and I just don't know what to do
make me feel like u love me again
u used to hang on my every word
what changed?
is it because i'm urs now that i just don't seem as important?
if i left
what would u do?
