some wish for wealth
others for fame
but I, I am different
I lay there
wishing the roof would collapse
the earth would shake
and swallow me whole.
Maybe a stray bullet will somehow
lose its way straight into my head.
and I could leave, forever,
run away and hide
and the endless tears would cease
as i lose feeling
and life.
No more strife, no more regrets
no worrying about tomorrow
or my decisions of days past.
No anger, no hate,
for myself or any other.
If only it was as easy as this
but there's so much more to it all
my parents, my friends, the people i love
i might do it to myself, but i can't do this to them.
this love is ridiculous.
it's not fairytales, or prince charmings,
but it is real.
it is my parents, who i just can't hurt this way
my friends, who always have and always will be there
it's strength through their confidence
in me
my decisions
everything i am and could be.
so yes, even as i wish, and almost pray
that somehow my story would end, it can
...unfinsihed