close my eyes and try to imagine
this place filled with
empty holes
dry throats and bloodshot eyes
the sand
fucking sand everywhere
and the people are so different
from us
i met a man today but
i wasnt sure if he was praising me
or threatening me
his words were lost in the translation
seven days without sleep
and the ground still rumbles
it keeps me awake at night
im imagining
im imagining
approaching in formation
lifting my gun
aiming at a mans head and
pulling the trigger
i was trained well
and
i
dont
miss
a
shot
complete order in the midst of complete chaos
and as the sun goes down
im resting next to four dead bodies
the blood still rushes from the holes
i put in their skin
im imagining
what my family is doing at this moment
sitting down to dinner
maybe they are thinking of me
and smiling
so proud
their hero
the gunshots
and the cries in the dark
the orange glow lighting up our faces
as i drift into a half sleep
i close my eyes for just a minute
and i wonder
about these people
about this war
if im suppose to really be here
that my actions are justified
i think about the lives i ended
every face i remember
so different from mine
but
we all have the same expression
i inhale for what seems like forever
the dust fills my lungs as i look up to the sky
and i wonder
if every ten year old enemy soldier
thinks the falling bombs are shooting stars.