You came back to me the weekend before my birthday
I thought it odd but you said you were sorry
And that you wanted to be selfish but committed
And when I looked through your phone I saw
How you talked to him
And him
And him
And how he said it had been two weeks
Since “the towel”
And how he tracked your period
Like Ahab with his charts
So when you stopped texting me back
The day after you took me out for my birthday
And we played darts
And I got the double bull
And you left early that morning
I waited
And waited
And knew
Because I’ve known this wait before
And I moved much quicker to return the room to its former form
And cleaned up the dead spider I had kept on the wall
The one you had smashed with your dirty hippie shoes
And threw out the wine corks scattered under the couch
And cleaned up the long strands of golden hair in the shower drain
And picked up your dirty laundry laying on your shelf
And took the sheets off the bed
That cream colored conch marks
From legs spread had tread
And packed it up
And rid the existence of you into the dumpster
Into the drain
Into the toilet
And watched it swirl into infinite banishment
And went home
And washed my clothes
And my laundry
And my skin
And my eyes
And my fingernails
and as I returned back to my apartment
my laundry basket at nose level
I smelled the old smell
I had once brought into my place
And as it reached my face
I felt safe