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i look deep inside myself and sometimes it seems all that is there is anger and pain and loss and saddness which of course is all a lie that i tell myself because i am human and either God or Science wants us all to struggle with life and each other and to fight tooth and nail every inch of the way to most likely oblivion

i look deep inside myself and i see light that i know is in everyone at first even though most of us throw it away or look away from it and tell ourselves that it is not there and only something outside of ourselves can possibly hold any true purpose or cause any needed change as we need change all the time so badly

i look deep inside myself and i wonder if there is any hope that i will ever be reunited with my children that i love and that i was a good father to even though i am now maybe half of who i was before they were kidnapped from me causing me to stroke and blackout and injure my heart and soul to the point i am almost dead

i look deep inside myself and sometimes i wish that my life as i know it was really a dream or in my case a nightmare that i am just having a very hard time waking up from to teach me to appreciate even more and to love even more than i do even though appreciation and love are all that have helped me survive

i look deep inside myself because i have no choice and it is the only thing i am left able to do