I wake up
I can not tell if it is day or night
Or today or the next day
Or the day after because all days have run into one
When you are not there, like my morning cup of tea
So many people call
I want to talk to everyone
About how I only wanted to talk to you
And yet I don’t think they would comprehend
How each hour I am awake
Is spent wondering
What the hell I am doing
I am digging and digging and digging myself down
To a place where I will find myself all alone
I told myself it would be safer down there
Away from it all
Now that I am looking around
The scene is not what I expected it to be
It is not quite
What I imagined