maybe we never had anything solid
holding us up anyway
conversations drowned in sarcasm and unkind words
punching, pinching
nothing to even show
how we both say we feel
maybe i'm afraid to be serious, kind, non-judgemental
because then you may like it, and i may like you, and you'll like me too
and i will ruin everything
maybe not now
but sometime
and once again, it'll all be my fault
so for now
i keep that distance
with enough punches, sarcasm, and judgements between us
so that i don't have to feel