Almost 17 Years Ago
You Touched Me For The First Time
I Had Knots In The Stomach
And That Was The Starting Sign
I'd Get Nervous Going To Your House
I Would Literally Become Sick
I Could Feel My Inner Bomb Ready To Pop
I Could Hear It.. Tick Tick
The Days Were Long
But The Nights Were Even Longer
The Feeling I Had Inside
Only Began To Grow Stronger
Nothing About Being There Felt Right
But I Had No Choice
Its Easy Looking Back Now
Realizing I Could Have Used My Voice
If Only I Spoke Up
And Said Something To You
Maybe You Wouldn't Have Kissed Me
Maybe Everything In These Nightmares Wouldn't Be True
If Only If Only
Thats All I Can Think Now
But In The Moment
My Only Thought Was How?
How Could You Do This
How Could You Touch Me
How Can You Ruin My Life
Didn't You See
All The Pain You Caused
How Much Damage You've Done
Any Man That Comes In My Life
I Choose To Run
I Don't Feel Safe
No Matter How Far I Am From You
Every Night I Close My Eyes
I Wonder What You Will Do
Where Your Hand Will Slide To Next
What Your Lips Will Kiss
If You'll Shoot Your Gun To Kill Me
And What You Would Do If You Miss
How You'd Come After Me
And Hurt Me Even Worse
Maybe I Should Do It
Maybe I Should Just Kill Myself First