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THiS iS MY STORY

iTS TiME FOR ME TO LET SOMEONE KNOW

THE PAST iS iN THE PAST

SO iTS TiME i LET GO



iTS TiME i LET GO OF THE HURT

iTS TiME i LET GO OF THE PAiN

iTS TiME i LET GO OF THE FLASHBACKS

THAT DRiVE ME COMPLETELY iNSANE



i WAS A PRETTY LiTTLE GiRL

WHO LiKED TO PLAY WiTH BARBiE DOLLS

i ALSO LiKED TO RUN AROUND

AND PLAY BASKETBALL



i NEVER REALLY GOT iN THE WAY

FOR THE MOST PART i STAYED iN MY ROOM

iT WAS MY SAFE PLACE

LiTTLE DiD i NO iT WOULD BE TURNED iNTO THE WORST PLACE VERY SOON



i WAS A LiTTLE FiRECRACKER

SO MY GRANDPARENTS ALWAYS MADE ME TAKE AN AFTERNOON NAP

SHORTLY AFTER i WAS ASLEEP

i HEARD THE FLOOR BOARDS CREAK AND TAP



SO i PRETEND TO SLEEP

TiLL i FELT SOMEONE SiT ON MY BED

i LOOKED UP

AND MY UNCLE KiSSED ME ON MY FOREHEAD



HE SAiD HE CAME iN TO RUB MY BACK

AND SiNG ME A SONG

iF ONLY i WAS OLDER

MY BRAiN WOULDVE TOLD ME THAT WAS WRONG



HE WAS RUBBiNG MY BACK

AND HUMMiNG THiS SOFT SOUND

AND VERY SLOWLY

HiS HAND STARTED MOViNG FURTHER DOWN



i REMEMBER FEELiNG SO UNCOMFORTABLE

BUT i WASNT SURE WHAT TO DO

HE TAPPED MY BUTT A COUPLE TiMES

THEN WHiSPERED "i LOVE YOU"



1994, THATS WHEN THiS ALL BEGAN

i WiSH i WAS SMARTER

AND WOULD HAVE SAiD SOMETHiNG

i JUST WiSH i WOULD HAVE TRiED HARDER



EVERYTiME HE TOUCHED ME

i SHOOK iNSiDE

i KNEW iT WAS MY FAULT

iD JUST WANT TO RUN AND HiDE



i WAS ASHAMED FOR NOT SPEAKiNG UP

i FELT LiKE i LOST MY VOiCE

BUT i FELT LiKE i WAS SO SMALL

i WOULDNT HAVE A CHOiCE



i HATED GOiNG TO MY GRANDPARENTS HOUSE

BECAUSE i KNEW HED BE THERE

HE SCARED ME

JUST BY HOW HE WOULD STARE



i NEVER TOLD ANYONE

BUT i ALSO NEVER TOLD HiM NO

i DiDNT WANT iT

BUT i FELT LOWER THAN LOW



i DiDNT THiNK HED LiSTEN TO ME

SO iD PRETEND TO SLEEP

i GUESS i THOUGHT HED GET BORED AND LEAVE

BUT EVEN AFTER iD SiT AND WEEP



YEARS THiS WENT ON

AND NO ONE HAD A CLUE

HED TOUCH ME RiGHT iN FRONT OF THEM

AND NO ONE KNEW



HED SiT BY ME AT THE TABLE

WiTH HiS HAND GOiNG UP AND DOWN MY THiGH

SOMETiMES iD GET UP AND RUN TO THE BATHROOM

SO NO ONE WOULD SEE MY CRY



WHEN iD LEAVE

AND HED HUG ME GOODBYE

HED KiSS MY NECK

AND i WiSHED i WOULD DiE



THE FAMiLY WOULD BE SWiMMiNG

HED REACH HiS HAND UNDERNEATH

NO ONE WOULD SEE

AS i TRY TO PUSH AWAY GRiNDiNG MY TEETH



AS i GREW OLDER

i BECAME MUCH SMARTER

iD KiCK, YELL, AND SCREAM

AND THiNGS FOR HiM BECAME HARDER



i WAS STiLL TOO SCARED TO TELL

BUT i WASNT TOO SCARED TO MAKE HiM STOP

i DREAMT OF TELLiNG ON HiM

AND HAViNG HiM GET TAKEN AWAY BY A COP



i CANT REMEMBER WHEN iT ALL ENDED

BUT i LEARNED TO STAY AWAY

i LEARNED MY VOiCE iS STRONG

SO iD SCREAM AND MY GRANDPARENTS WOULD COME RiGHT AWAY



NO ONE KNOWS ALL THE HELL i WENT THROUGH

AND NEiTHER DO YOU

iM STiLL SUFFERiNG FROM SOMETHiNG THAT HAPPENED 15+ YEARS AGO

BUT NO MATTER HOW LONG iT TAKES, i WiLL PULL THROUGH