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  You know I wish I was bold enough to express the way I feel.

 I wish I could say that im strong enough to handle this battle alone.       

I wish I can just jump up and fly leaving all the pain behind.

I wish I wish

Suicidal thoughts consume me

The negativity surrounding confuse me

The voices and my head abused me

Then the sound of death amuse me

But the way suicide pursue me

It left a huge viewing

Of a way to escapes it’s enduring

Pain and suffering  

And when I break free from its clutches

Life’s more beautiful than an unbothered untouched flower, sitting peacefully in a garden

With water droplets racing each other down the leaves and the stems of the magnificent flower, while

The sun beams gently shine on the flower creating a glorious glow.

Life’s great.

Life’s wonderful.

Life is tremendously sensational,

Well I thought,

Stress takes over my life, I become confused, tired, annoyed, irritated, indignant, and quick tempered,

I start to feel unloved, uncared for, unwanted, useless, stupid, hated

The darkness blinds me where I can only see the bad in people; what they done to me, said to me, acted around me

I loss control, I become a puppet

But whos the puppeteer?

Who controls my emotions?

Why do I get angry so quick?

Why do I think the whole world is coming against me?

So many unanswered questions.

God says he gives us power over darkness

God says that he wouldn’t give you anything you can’t handle but yet people commit suicides every day

And looks like im next?

So tell me God… is it my own confusion? My own sin? My own fear?

Why me?

I don’t want to kill myself, but yet I don’t want to live ether.

And let’s quote one of my Moms favorite quotes

“It’s normal”

“your not the only one”

 “ask God”

Im asking for help, attention, sincerity, love,

but You know I wish I was bold enough to express the way I feel and I guess I did

 I wish I could say that im strong enough to handle this battle alone and I still wish       

I wish I can just jump up and fly leaving all the pain behind, but that’s only a dream

I wish I wish