Crippling Fear

Crippled by fear

My gut churns, my heart stops

It’s you I hear

My mind is racing

Confused and stumbling

Which way is up?

Shaking, scared

My insides know for sure,

No doubt you are near, nearer here



Eyes tracing, hearing muffled, echoing voices

Gazed with sadness, anger, fear

Intimidation, threatening, alienation

Loneliness, desperation, overwhelming situations,

Taking personal information, personal invasion



Are the doors locked?

Is he in the house?

What are those noises I hear, or don’t I hear?

I don’t know….

Paranoia laying still and silent, shadows, phone calls,

Just breathing, no one says a word

Lurking in the darkness, shadows in the window

Taking showers with little movement, only darkness

Don’t make a sound….

The alarm is set, and so is the fear setting in a permanent scar



Betrayal, don’t know who you are

Who is that man hiding in endless lie?

What is that cloud, the fog, the murky look in your eye?



No life, no heart, no goodness there

No happiness, no gentle heart,

Oh they’re there, not real



What is true?  This isn’t fair!  Don’t believe anything

Don’t chip at that wall, keep building it up, it’s all a lie

That’s the goal; your fear keeps him high



All the while good, kind, mothering care

Now it’s all fear, anger, sadness

Where is that shining star?  She’s no longer there



For what, what is the meaning?  It matters not,

Just keep leaning toward the stars, look at the light,

Let go of the fear, don’t give up the fight

Shift gears, unwind it fast,

Don’t let hate take your breath, it’s not your fate



Beautiful children, I want to see you,

I need to love you and to feel you

Come toward my warmth, I have it back

I took it, I ran faster to you,

Come to me, take my hands



Your face is flawless, perfect treasure

Treasure you, I will

Your pure heart is still

Speak your language, my mind is open

I want to show you, show me too, little you…

I will listen



I will not give up, I will be strong

I will not leave you; I will be here for you



My fear is no longer… gone

My energy positive, flushed the fear down the pipe

Fear no longer exists here



You have the wrong address,

The number you dialed, disconnected

The door you kicked in, solid, still standing



Come here young man

Take the other hand

The devil wants you; oh excuse me, has you

He stole your soul; no, your heart was handed over

I tried to show you, lead and guide you, win you over

You chose death, death of goodness, goodness crumbled



Let go, let go of evil, take a hold of love

No guilt, no fear, no weakness, not a tear

A tear of joy, cry for Dylan & K, cry for beauty

A mother’s love will rein

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Afzal Shauq's picture

wow impressive one... its also as good as the previous poem... rich idea and richly done... appreciate you friend